A Letter to my Children
Let me start by saying that I love you. I love you more than anything in the world, no matter what.
I hope you always remember this, even when you may not feel like I'm showing you that love. There will be days where I have failed you as a mother and as your friend. I am far from that 'perfect mom' that I always wanted to be for you, because you deserve the absolute best. I still struggle to control my triggers some days - just as I forget that you are not an adult. You are indeed only a child.
And you're only little for so long before you're not so little anymore. Please believe me when I say that I try to cherish this every moment I get. I notice your shirts getting shorter and your hair getting longer. I notice your spelling getting better and your books getting more challenging. I see you change before my eyes almost, every day.
I am so proud of the person you are.
I wish I could explain in words the pain I feel when you talk about others who may have hurt your feelings or didn't show you the kindness that you were taught. It makes me so sad when you tell me a 'friend' wouldn't play with you knowing that you wouldn't turn anyone away.
You have the kindest heart; I am so incredibly proud of the little people you are becoming.
I am so proud of you, for showing all of your best qualities the most often. I have never met someone who didn't immediately fall in love with you. You are so kind, so empathetic, so forgiving, so smart, and oh so wonderful.
You show me how to be a better person. You show me how to find the excitement in the everyday parts of life. You show me that you can be the sun on a cloudy day. Somedays I feel like I don't show you the amount of love I feel for you. It's "I love you, but you need to eat breakfast before school." and "I love you, but I need to get lunch ready." "I love you, but we have to get in the shower and get ready for bed." I feel really crappy about this because someday to soon I'll be missing you following me around room to room, asking to do your makeup with me, hanging on my legs, all the love and definitely the snuggles.
I love you, even when you don't make the best choice, even when you make mistakes. I love you on our best days and I love you even more on the hard days.
